Will this ever go away?!?!?

All my life I had been consciously aware of different **** people put themselves into. Therefore I was careful bt women I date, what they want from me because I always questioned why would people bring unnessacrily pain to their life. 2 years ago I was diagnosed with some minor heart issue which I propagated into a bigger unexpected problem which made me look for someone to take care of me and at least talk because I couldn't do it with my parents. 10 months later she dumps because I was so open to hear and I was depressed with anxiety attacks. I tried explaining to her she wouldn't even listen, I think she doesn't understand. The question is its still 7 month and I know I love her. What should I do?